I, Myself, and My-inner-self

"Iiih, serem deh!"

"Galak banget sih?"

"Suer, lu serem banget."

"Gila, tahan dia."

"Serius lu?"

Perasaan saja atau memang sudah tertutupkah? Sepertinya masker yang dipakai sudah melekat di permukaannya sehingga tak bisa terbedakan lagi mana luar dan mana dalam. Sepertinya juga aku sudah menutup rapat-rapat pengelihatan orang tentang diriku yang paling dalam. My-inner-self.

Hah. Seperti yang sudah diketahui, sepertinya mereka menyangka wajahku ini tampan. ya, tampan. TAMPak menakutkAN. Mungkin ya, tapi menurutku biasa saja. Dan ada juga yang menyebutkan tampangku ini biasa saja. Ya, dan maksud dari biasa adalah benar-benar biasa. Standar. Rata. Flat. Lurus. Tidak ada sedikitpun emosi. Biasa saja. Namun......

Wajahku yang ada di balik wajahku ini mungkin lebih rapuh daripada ini. Dari pada tampang besi di luar. Karena otot yang kencang diluar melindungi tulang yang rapuh di dalam. Mungkin itulah yang aku bisa lihat dari diriku yang biasa ini. Yang terbiasa meneteskan air mata hanya di mimpi saja.

Mereka bilang juga mataku menandakan keseriusan. Mungkin tida. Maksudnya tajam. Ya, entahlah, tapi kata mereka mataku yang bulat ini tajam. Entah mereka yang tidak tahu atau aku yang salah pengertian, tapi apakah bola tidak memiliki sudut? Ya, jadi mataku sebenarnya tidak tajam juga.
Masih banyak hal yang membuat matahatiku menangis, namun aku tidak akan membiarkan mataku menangis. Aku selalu menahan apa yang ingin keluar dari jiwaku, perasaanku. Lalu semua itu akan tersimpan di dalam lubuk hatiku sampai aku melakukan sesuatu dan aku akan menumpahkannya di situ, meski hal itu akan ditumpahkan di dalam, bukan luar.


Dari tadi mereka yang bilang. Lalu sekarang aku yang bilang. Aku bilang diriku berani. Mungkin. Ya. Mungkin sedikit percaya diri. Mungkin. Eeemm.....
Sebenarnya tidak terlalu juga. Aku adalah seorang yang pemalu. Aku tidak mampu mengungkapkan sesuatu secara langsung. Aku hanya bisa melakukan hal itu dengan caraku sendiri. Melalui hal yang eksternal. Sesuatu yang tidak langsung. Dan aku pun mungkin terpaksa untuk memberanikan diri, bukan berani dari awal. Sebab aku juga manusia yang tidak sempurna.


Satu lagi. Aku memang tidak mau menulis hal ini, tapi tidak apalah berbagi sedikit di dalam pagar yang berduri itu.


Kadang aku memang memiliki hal, sesuatu yang hanya bisa dibayangkan. Lalu aku menuliskannya. Entah apa itu, tapi aku tetap menuliskannya. Itu aspirasiku, aku menuliskannya. Itu gambaranku, aku menggambarnya. Itu yang aku mau, aku akan mencoba mencapainya. Ya. Hanya mencoba. Mungkin. Ya. Aku ini orang yang biasa, Hanya ingin. Namun aku ini memang seseorang yang sangat tidka patut untuk ditiru. Terutama sifat jelekku ini. Aku ini menjadi seorang yang sangat tertutup yang bertopeng orang yang easy-going. Yang bertopeng orang yang biasa saja. Ya. Itulah aku. Aku tidak ingin topengku terbongkaar dan wajahku yang asli terlihat. Itu karena....


Ya....


Aku ini manusia.
Manusia yang biasa.
Manusia biasa yang bermuka dua.
Picik, mungkin.
Cerdik, mmungkin.
Malas, ya, bisa.
Kreatif, tergantung.
Tersembunyi, inginnya.
Tidak diketahui.....
Mungkin itulah kata yang tepat.


Me => Undefined


Jadi, inilah diriku. Kedalaman dari diriku yang tidak ingin dibuka sehingga berduplikat menjadi sesuatu yang lain daripada kedalamannya. Membuat suatu topeng yang menutupi topeng lagi yang menutupi muka. Tampak asli.

Mata

Aku kembali lagi ke pinggiran kota ini. Ya. Kota yang indah, masyarakatnya ramah, dan aku senang dengan semua itu. Semua terlihat asri dan sangat membuat moodku kembali rileks.

Suatu hari, seorang teman menyuruhku untuk berlibur ke pusat dari kota itu. Ya, meskipun aku lebih senang di pinggirannya yang masih belum terglobalisasi, jujur aku belum pernah ke pusat kota ini. Jadi ajakan temanku ini aku indahkan dan besoknya ku berkemas untuk perjalanan pulang hari berkeliling tengah kota.

Ya. Memang. Pusat kota ini terbilang hangat jika dibandingkan dengan panasnya Jakarta. Namun suasana di sini juga masih terlihat agak familiar. Mungkin karena pinggiran kota yang penuh dengan orang yang hangat, orang di pusatnya juga hangat. Itu menurutku. Dan, memang. Agak hangat. Saat aku membeli pisang di pasar di kota itu, orang-orangnya ramah-ramah. Dengan bahasa sunda mereka yang masih kental dengan "teh"nya, mereka bercanda dengan temannya yang berjualan buah di sebelahnya. Mereka seperti keluarga. Ya. Saling membantu, saling memperhatikan. Dan mulai saat itu, aku mau mencoba menetap beberapa hari di kota ini. Pusat kota ini.

Beberapa hari sejak aku menetap, semua terlihat asri dan biasa saja bagiku. Namun, pada suatu hari, seorang anak membuatku tertarik.

Saat aku berjalan-jalan untuk menghabiskan waktu, aku berjalan tepat di belakang seorang anak yang tingginya mungkin sepantaran denganku. Ya, mungkin bisa dikatakan remaja. Dia berjalan dengan cepat, walau sebenarnya itu hanya langkahnya yang besar-besar. Dia seperti memakai baju serangam sekolah putih dan bercelana panjang abu-abu. Lalu aku pun berjalan saja mengikuti naluriku. Tak ku sadari, aku mengikuti remaja itu sampai masuk ke dalam gang. Sepi? Mungkin tidak. Ada beberapa orang di situ. Diam. Ya, tidak juga. Ada yang sedang membeli baso, ada yang sedang berjalan dengan temannya dan lain-lain.

Namun, sesuatu yang menarik perhatianku muncul. Saat remaja itu melintasi tikungan di gang itu, aku melihat seorang anak kecil yang sedang bermain dengan riang dan asyiknya itu melihat dengan pandangan yang agak kosong dan menghentikan permainannya sebentar. Lalu anak itu pun berlari masuk ke dalam rumah. Tidak puas dengan kejadian itu, aku pun terus mengikuti remaja itu.

Kejadian kedua yang membuatku makin penasaran juga terjadi setelah aku melihat remaja itu di tikungan berikutnya. Seekor kucing berwarna cokelat belang-belang yang memandang remaja itu. Aku pun melihat remaja itu sepertinya melihat kucing itu. Belum sampai dekat si remaja dengan si kucing, kucing itu memalingkan diri dan lari ke arah yang berlawanan. Sebelum kucing itu lari, aku sempat melihat suatu cahaya pantulan dari kucing itu. Ya, mungkin sangat kecil, namun itu terlihat bersinar, sekali, lalu kucing itu pergi. Mungkin remaja itu mengenakan kacamata.

Aku pun terus mengikuti dia. Dia pun sepertinya tidak mengetahui keberadaanku dibelakangnya, dan terus saja memandang lurus kedepan tanpa memperhatikan hal yang lain. Walaupun orang lain kadang melihat dirinya, dia masih saja pergi dengan dingin sampai keluar gang.

Aku cepat-cepat menyusul sampai di belakang remaja itu. Namun kali ini berbeda. Dia sepertinya tidak nyaman dengan sesuatu. Dia menengok ke kanan dan ke kiri. Dan sekarang aku bisa melihat sedikit dari matanya yang agak bingung. Bingung? Hal yang sangat berbeda dari persepsiku. Aku yang mengira bahwa dia memiliki mata yang berbeda ternyata salah. Namun sesuatu yang janggal ini membuatku ingin melihatnya lebih dekat.

Dia menyebrang jalan dan aku ikuti. Sekarang kami berada di satu trotoar. Udaranya hangat, dan agak panas. Namun aku merasakan sesuatu yang dingin. Sesuatu mengatakan padaku untuk berhenti dan menyudahi ini, namun aku tak mendengarnya. Dan setelah aku berada di belakangnya lagi, terasa suatu rasa yang dingin. Aku dekati. Dekati. Dan tiba-tiba dia menoleh ke belakang. Aku pun melihat langsung matanya di balik kacamatanya. Tiba-tiba aku terdiam. Dia pun kembali berjalan setelah menengok ke belakang sebentar.

Aku....diam. Bulu kudukku tiba-tiba berdiri. Aku merasa seperti diancam dengan sebilah pisau yang memintaku untuk menjauh darinya. Suatu mata yang menusuk, jauh sampai ke dalam. Sebuah perasaan dingin yang belum pernah aku rasakan. Tajamnya.... Dia hanya melihat dengan pikiran yang sepertinya penuh dengan es. Penuh dengan.... kedinginan...

Terdiam.... Membeku.... Aku di sana... Beberapa detik kemudian, aku kembali ke alam sadarku dan remaja itu sudah menghilang. Aku hanya terdiam di tengah-tengah riuhnya orang-orang yang berlalu-lalang di atas trotoar itu. Dia... Diangin. Sebuah perasaan yang tersembunyi, jauh dari dalamnya. Mungkin itu yang bisa aku nilai.

Esoknya, aku berencana untuk melihat-lihat kota ini lagi. Namun, aku kembali teringat dengan pengalaman yang kemarin. Apakah yang sebenarnya terjadi? Mengapa ada saja orang yang bermata seperti itu? Tajam namun tudak tahu diarahkan paa siapa? Apakah ada yang dipermasalahkan olehnya? Yang soal-soal yang tak terjawab yang berputar di pikiranku. Semoga aku bisa mengetahuinya.... Nanti.....

FL Creation (On Going)

Aah...
Just want to show my ability post a randomness FL Studio creation. From... Umm.... Yeah...
The worst disasterpiece one to the masterpiece better one. Hope you like it.

Project have finished :

Leaves and Wind (From Shoot The Bullet, Area 1 Theme)


Heavenly Miko (From Reimu's theme song)


Reactor Beat (From Okuu's boss song)

U.N. Owen is Go to School by Bus (Flan cha~n song)

Error 909 (⑨'s theme song)


Fate of Misfortune God (Hina's theme and boss song)


69　(⑨⑥, yeah, you know...)


9 School (⑨'s theme song)


Relax Medicine (Erin theme song, piano only)


Medley (Umm, I forget, but it contain Udonge, Youmu, Sakuya, Nitori, Marisa, etc.)


Umm, the worst maybe? (The first song I made with FL....badly... "OTL and this is from Marisa's theme song)


Yeah, maybe some time later.... I'll make some music again... I mean arrangement... Or songs... Or whatever...

Update : Oh, And if you want me to make some arrangement of Touhou, just tell me, comment on this post, or something else.
I'll make it... hopefully I can make it...
And if you want to download it, feel free to download it from here...

Download.

Oh, and if you would like to know my soundcloud ID, this is the link...
Deflan

Yes Pain, What Gain?

There's some quote that explain that "We must get some pain to have some gain" or something like that. Maybe we have to be a masochist like this one?

Probably, not...

And I too will probably not go to do this. But, this is the real life. This is the life. The life we walked on. The life we keep on hold until now. The life.... that make us feel the pain. But that's not the problem because if nopain, no gain. But the problem is this quote have changed into this :

YOU I PAIN, YOU I GAIN

Is that clear? Many people used other people for their selfish desires. And I can't stand that...

What if you've been used by someone?
What's your reaction?

If that guy is me, I've been already upset. Reaaaaaally upset.

I have some memory of being used, maybe. But I don't know, weather I'm being used or only me who think that I'm being used? It's all come back too you. With what glass you look? If it's with your selfishness, then, it can be wrong. Oh, and maybe this will help you :

THOU CANNOT JUDGE THOU-SELF!

Umm. Maybe like that. You can't judge yourself with your eye and head, but with people eyes. other people will judge you, weather you are good....or bad. Weather you're being used... or using somebody.

This can be changed into some-indescribably-condition if your best friend used you for his or her desires. Or worse, his or her evil desires and you'll get nothing but the bad scene.

Now. I just want to share my memory to you all. Maybe a little. How if you have made a task, a long and it must be done in a few days, and it's canceled in the last day? (Which mean is you have done that hard work)

Don't answer it. Just think it. And maybe I feel like that. And I can't take it anymore...

More question.
How's your feeling when your effort to do something better for someone or some organization with all your heart and your team is end with a word "sorry but it cannot be done because of...bla bla bla....."?

Another question.
When you ask someone who got a high authority in an organization to make a good deed to that organization and want to make an effort as soon as possible, the agreement to do that effort is approved 3 month later with time a month to a deadline and that time you're get too many task. What will you do? Get the agreement or abandon it?

Many.....many...many question....
So many which I want to share...
But I can't talk too much...

And I write English with a poor grammar...
I just hope that I can get my score as high as possible as the One allow me.

FL Tutorial (Basic only, maybe)

Nah, sekarang, saya akan membahas sedikit dasar dari FL Studio 8 yang saya pakai sekarang ini untuk membuat beberapa lagu arrangement. Dan mungkin kita bisa lihat sebuat interface dari FL Studio 8 seperti di bawah ini. Namun tanpa Alice.

Nah, di atas ada banyak tombol dan banyak di antaranya yang sudah ditandai. Kita mulai satu-satu dari yang ditandai.

• Playlist : Tempat untuk menaruh pattern (akan dijelaskan di bawah) dan sangat penting dalam FL Studio. Kalau kotak seperti yang di atas belum ada, klik saja tombol yang ditunjuk, ya.
• Step Sequencer (SS) : Tempat membuat satu pattern. Pattern di sini maksudnya seperti bagian dalam lagu. Bisa saja dalam satu pattern dimasukan drum saja dan bisa saja dimasukan melodi saja. Hal ini sangat berguna apabila ada bagian drum yang di loop terus. Jadi, pattern itu bisa dimasukan ke dalam playlist secara berderet. (Nanti ada screenshotnya)
• Piano Roll : Untuk membuat melodi. Jadi seperti komposer, kita bisa memasangkan nada-nada dalam piano roll untuk suatu instrument.
• Browser : Sebuah bar di sebelah kiri yang menyediakan berbagai instrument dan option lainnya. (Mungkin kalian bisa ngulik sendiri di situ dan sebagai hint, untuk mencari instrument untuk dimasukan ke dalam Step Sequencer (SS), kalian bisa buka Chanel Preset, Plugin Preset, atau Packs. Lalu kalau instrumentnya mau dimasukan, di drag saja ke SS)
• Mixer : Ya, saya kurang mengetahui dan masih belum mengetahui banyak tentang mixer, tetapi saya hanya tahu namanya saja. XP
• Alice : Tsundere

Ya, lalu dalam SS terdapat tombol tombol, benar? Itu loh yang di samping kanan Kick, Clap, Hat, dan Snare. Nah, kalau itu ditekan, maka tombol itu akan menyala. Lalu jika di Play patternnya (dengan menekan Space), maka ada lampu di bawah SS yang bergerak seiring dengan waktu berlalu. Nah, pada saat di Play, tombol yang kita tekan akan bberbunyi di waktu yang sudah di tetapkan oleh kita (Letak tombol itu ada di mana gitu. Semakin ke kiri, semakin cepat kita mendengar nada itu.) Ya, mungkin kalau di praktekkan lebih enak daripada dibicarakann. XP

Lanjut ke interface Piano Roll di bawah ini.

Nah, di atas ada benda hijau yang menempel di sebelah kanan keyboardnya. Itu adalah Not  yang bisa kita pasangkan dengan mudah dalam Piano roll. Dan untuk membuat nada itu, kita harus ada dalam mode "menulis"nya. Ada di sebelah kiri sekali tulisan Piano roll - Concert Piano -....

• Piano roll options : Terdapat beberapa pengaturann Piano roll
• Tools : Perkakas untuk mengedit nada tersebut, entah menjadi Legato, atau di potong tipis-tipis, atau dan lain sebagainya...
• Draw : Untuk menggambar nada
• Paint : Untuk menggambar nada juga, namun kalian bisa bedakan sendiri perbedaan dengan Draw saat di tekan dan drag nadanya
• Delete : Menghapus Nada (Alternatif lain jika masih ada dalam mode Draw adalah tahan klik kanan mouse)
• Slice : Memotong nada dengan cara di tahan dari atas dan di drag ke bawah lalu lepaskan.
• Select : Untuk memilih nada (Drag untuk memilih dalam jangkauan yang besar)(Alternatif lain jika masih dalam mode Draw adalah Ctrl + Drag)
• Zun....Zoomm : Untuk memper-besar-atau-kecil-kan daerah jangkauan kita melihat nada.
• Playback : Kalau di tekan di daerah yang sudahh di pasangi nada, maka akan mengeluarkan suara. Jika di drag dari suatu tempat sampai ke tempat lain, suaranya juga yang dihasilkan sesuai dengan nada yang kita taruh.

Lalu di tempat yang paling bawah, yang seperti tiang berwarna hijau itu adalah volume dari nada itu.

Oh, dan itu, yang dimaksud dengan Piano roll - Concert Piano - Velocity adalah Piano roll dari instrument Concert Piano dan tiang warna hijau yang di bawah itu berarti velocity atau dapat dikatakan juga keras lemahnya suara. Cara lain untuk memunculkan piano roll untuk suatu instrumen adalah dengan mengklik kanan chanel tersebut (chanel itu yg seperti Snare, Hat, Clap, dan Kick) dan  menekan "Piano roll".

Lalu ada sedikit tambahan dari yang ditunjukan di gambar di atas...

Tempo untuk menaikan atau menurunkan tempo.

Pattern untuk memilih pattern.

Ada juga tombol pat dan song. Di atas yang bersinar song. Berarti, satu lagulah (Yang ada di playlist) yang akan di play jika kalian menekan Space. Namun, jika Pat yang ditekan (Dan lampunya menyala), maka pattern yang sedang dieditlah yang berbunyi saat di Play. 

Mungkin sekian dulu penjelasan mengenai interfacenya dan ada beberapa tips untuk memulai membuat satu lagu dari FL Studio.

• Buat beberapa pattern yang sudah di spesifikasi. Misalnya satu pattern untuk drum jadi bisa di ulang, lalu ada pattern untuk melodi yang bisa beberapa kali di ulang atau pattern untuk harmoninya dan lain sebagainya.
• Untuk pattern yang bernama "Main Automation" Jangan di apa-apakan. Biarlah demikian.
• Jika windows dari piano roll atau playlist terlalu kecil, tekan saja Enter untuk diperbesar dan tekan enter lagi untuk diperkecil lagi.
• Cobalah untuk melihat tutorial lain dari internet yang lebih kompeten, bilamana tutorial ini masih belum membantu atau kalian bisa bertanya dengan saya.

Contoh buatan saya di Youtube : 

• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0fz4i-aS9g
• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IajJ2DIytq0

I See, I Write, I Get [Part 5]

Momiji : Now.... We go to your...

Tenshi : We're going to Makai.

Momiji : Huh? Wha...? Why?

Tenshi : You'll see...

Momiji :.... Hmm....OK....

In Makai.....

Shinki : We can't go on like this....

Shiki : Indeed...

Yuyuko : There's too many souls in Hakugyokurou.... And my power is not enough too manage it...

Satori : Mee too... Too many corpse in Underground...

Shiki : ...Hmm....

Yuyuko : This is....very hard....

Satori : They're coming....

(Everybody look at Tenshi and Momiji)

Tenshi : sorry to kept you waiting.

Shinki : Where's Iku?

Tenshi : She have a problem in heaven, so she tell me the whole thing.

Satori : That's a good thing, but why you bring this dog?

Momiji : Eeeh?

Tenshi : Iku tells me to bring her with me to Makai.

Yuyuko : Wait!

(Everybody look at Yuyuko)

Yuyuko : She's clever. We can use her!

Shiki : .....Hmm....

Shinki : ....Ooh....

Satori : Yes. That's a good idea.

Momiji : Umm... What are...?

Satori : We are gather here to talk about the ghost and youkai in Gensokyou.

Shiki : There's too many problem from a mass souls and ghouls in Hakugyokurou, Underground, and Higan.

Shinki : And Makai has its problem. Youkai has gone stronger and the nature of youkai to eat human will be a huge problem in human village.

Yuyuko : Furthermore. After the incident that include Miko, Futatsuiwa, and their friends, maybe some of our problem get a little better.

Tenshi : But, a little lack of work can make a bigger problem.

Momiji : Hmm... So it's...

Satori : Yes.... She do it again.

Shiki : And I must punished her because of her work...

Yuyuko : So, this is the plan. We have our unique power, our unique company,  and we have to do it until our last drop of health. Now, Lady Shiki.

Shiki : Yes.

Yuyuko : You are the judge at Higan and you can punished that slacker and maybe give her "something". You know what I mean right?

Shiki : Hmm... I...I'll do my best...

Yuyuko : And Lady Shinki.
Shinki : Yes.
Yuyuko : Tell your child about this problem and have her do the sweeping in the human village.
Shinki : Understood.
Satori : And......
.......Silence.....
Satori : It's hard.... But I'll do my best.
Yuyuko : Tenshi.
Tenshi : Hmm?
Yuyuko : You've crushed the Hakurei Shrine, yes?
Tenshi : So, you want me to crush that shrine again?
Yuyuko : This time, make sure that you make an earthquake that feels natural and don't say it's because of you. Just tell that it's because of her lazy friend.
Tenshi : Okay.
Yuyuko : And now.
Momiji : (shocked) !!!
Yuyuko : You have a very important role here.
Momiji : (Shaking).....
Yuyuko : But do not fear. Just make sure you have a friend or two who you trust the most, but not that Tengu or the rival of that tengu.
Momiji : ......Umm....
Yuyuko : Your important job now.... To restore the gensokyou to its original self....is.....
...........


PART 5 END

I See, I Write, I Get [Part 4]

Hatate : As you all know that the outside world is very modern and there's many magic item like a refrigerator, a thing where you can put something into that thing and then that thing will be frozen by that thing. And then a...
Cirno : Argh! Come on! I don't care about that ref-or-something about freezing! What I want to know is what is facebook? That word is really bothering me! It's like insult me or something like that!
Hatate : OK, OK... Then, Facebook is... (pull from behind to a gap)
Cirno : Noo!!! (Run to the gap)
Yukari : (From the gap and holding Cirno's head)Hold on you icy girl. Facebook doesn't insult you or something like that.
Rumia : Is that so?
Cirno : So that is?
Yukari : You must ask the fastest tengu in Gensokyou. (Go to the gap again and the gap dissappear)
Momiji : So... it's her! (Run)
Koishi : Oh, Aya! She...
Cirno : Let's go guys! Let's go to that mountain! (Go with Daiyousei and Rumia)
Koishi : Umm.... Now I alone again.
Sanae : (Come) Excuse me, do you see Kanako-sama?
Koishi : Oh, That way. (Point at Human village)
Sanae : Oh, ok. Thanks. (Go)
Kaishi : You're welcome....Now... Oh! I must go to Hakurei shrine! What am I doing here anyway? (Run)

And so, Momiji go to Youkai mountain again...

Momiji : Hmm... I don't know what Aya want to do with that kind of thing. But...
Hina : (Spin! Spin! Spin! And stop spin) Hold it right there!
Momiji : Huh? Hina? What are you doing here?
Hina : You mustn't go there! There's many misfortune there!
Momiji : What? Why?
Hina : (Spin! Spin! Go)I must not talk anything more, bye.
Momiji : Hey! Hold on! She's gone....
Cirno : OK! Now let's go to...
Rumia : Where are we going to?
Daiyousei : Umm...are we going to....
Cirno : Yes! That shrine! Let's go to that G*beep*m goddess!
Daiyousei : Hey! wait Cirno! What do you want to do with her?
Cirno : I don't know. But it like I like to freeze some frogs. Hehe...
Rumia : Is that so~?
Daiyousei : Wa...wait...
Momiji : (This is confusing.... I must get out of here)=(Go to Village)
Cirno and Rumia : (Go)
Daiyousei : Hey! Waiit! (Follow Cirno)
..........
..........Not long afterward at that place.......
Yukari : Fufufu.... Just as planned....
Ran : So...We just have to do "that", right?
Yukari : Yes. And you must not go further than this. If you over do it, then it might be fail.
Chen : OoooK Yukari sama! I'll do my best! Nyaaan!
Ran : Chen is absolutely cute...(nosebleed)
Yukari : Absolutely right... (nosebleed)
Chen : Huuh? Yukari sama? Ran sama?
Yukari : Just go Chen, do you work OK?
Ran : I'll follow you Chen....
Chen : Umm... OK. (Go)
Yukari : Hahaha.... So now I just have to go sleep again... I leave the rest to you Ran.
Ran : (stand still with bleed on nose)
Yukari : Ran!
Ran : Hee...hee...
Yukari : (Grab Ran and go out from that forest)

..........
Momiji : Now then. If that place brings me misfortune, then I shall...
Mokou : (Run and stop) Hey! Don't tell Keine where am I! (Run)
Momiji : Hey! What are....? Umm... Oh, well, maybe that...
Ex-Keine : (Run) huft...huft... Mokou... Wait... Huft... Huft...
Momiji : Umm... Are you alright?
Ex-Keine : Huft...I'm alright....huft...But, could you tell me...
Momiji : Umm... You miss Keine right?
Ex-Keine : Yes...huft...then...huft...where is Mokou...huft...
Momiji : Umm... Mokou? Umm... I...aah.... Maybe I haven't see her.
Ex-Keine : Huft... Ohh... Thanks then...(Walk)
Momiji : Umm... That....is....
Hatate : Hold it Patrol Dog!
Momiji : !
Hatate : (Walk) You are the one who make me involved in this riddle! Now give back my precious...
Momiji : Wa...Wait! Wait!!! I don't even...
Hatate : I don't care! What I care is my...
Marisa : Incommiiiinggg!!!!!!!!!(With her broom she blast Hatate before she finished her word...Yeah, some kind of Witch Leyline)
Momiji : ................
Reimu : (Run) Hey! Come back here you cookie thief!
Momiji : ................So...............What's the point?
Tenshi : Hey! You! Dog over there!
Momiji : What?
Tenshi : (Fly down to Momiji) What are you doing here?
Momiji : Me? Umm... I don't know. Aaa...
Tenshi : Then you should help me.
Momiji : Help...what?
Tenshi : Just follow me.

Part 4 END

I See, I Write, I Get [Part 3]

In Hakurei Shrine.

Marisa : (Sit near the terrace) Yo, Reimu.
Reimu : (Already sit there and drinks her tea) What?
Marisa : Wha... Cold! Cold!
Reimu : You're not Kimeemaru right?
Marisa : Hahaha! Don't be like that to me! We're friends are we? (Try to reach a cookies near Reimu)
Reimu : Have you been thinking that I might kill you just because of this kind of thing?
Marisa : (Stop) Hahaha! You never think that to me, aren't you? Because I'm a witch, not a youkai OK! Hehe...
Reimu : Huft, you're such a bother. Eat one.
Marisa : Yippie!! (eat one cookie)
Reimu : JUST! ONE! OK?
Marisa : (While muching) Owwhkey!
Reimu : (Sigh)...By the way, Marisa.
Marisa : (Still Muching) Hmmng?
Reimu : Do you think Koishi can do that work?
Marisa : (swallow)What work?
Reimu : Oh, you haven't heard of it?
Marisa : Haven't heard what?
Reimu : This is about Aya.
Marisa : That Papparazzi?
Reimu : Yeah, or whatever you want to say. I've been thinking that lately she never show her face to us.
Marisa : Hmm...
Reimu : Either her so-called-newspaper was never came to here after...
Marisa : That incident?
Reimu : (Nod then drink her tea)
Marisa : Hmm... Maybe she can't get a news after that big incident, right?
Reimu : I don't know. Why don't you ask her?
Marisa : No, no. That'll be a bother for me if I do that. Hehee..

Silence......

Marisa : Umm... Why about this situation Reimu?
Reimu : Did you think someone just heard our conversation?
Marisa : Umm? I don't think I heard anything.
Reimu : .....Oh... well... never mind then...
Marisa : ....OK....Oh, Reimu, do you have a glass of tea? I'm very thirsty! (Go inside the shrine)
Reimu : Hey don't run in my shrine! Gah. She do it again. (Go inside the shrine)

Momiji : Huft... I'm saved...
Koishi : From what?
Momiji : Whaa?!!!
Koishi : Huh?
Momiji : Umm... Uhh... Nothing...
Rumia : Is that so?
Momiji : Uwaa! Ohh...
Rumia : ?
Cirno : Hey you who call me! What do you want?
Daiyousei : Umm, Cirno... maybe you could... (whisper...whisper...)
Cirno : What? Run?! With my might! I will fight her because I am the Strongest! Hahaha!!!
Daiyousei : Eeeh! (To Momiji) I I... sorry for the... Umm... Don't...
Cirno : Hey! What are you saying?
Momiji : Ee...Eh.. Ye... yeah! I wont do anything... I... I just a journalist! Yes! I'm a journalist. And sorry about this misunderstanding...
Dai : Ooh...
Rumia : Is that so?
Koishi : So this is misunderstanding yes?
Cirno : What is that so-called jour..umm....jour....what is that?
Momiji : Eeh, journalist?
Cirno : Yes! That is...
Koishi : A people who make a journal every day to post in Facebook!
Momiji : Face...what? Who told you that thing?
Koishi : Yukari told me about that. She says that Facebook is somewhere you can meet virtually but not physically...
Rumia : Is that so?
Momiji : Hmm... Interesting... Maybe I can...
Cirno : I don't know what you people talking about, but somehow I don't understand this conversation! Please! Someone, could you translate this?!
Hatate : (Enter)Maybe I can explain this...
Koishi, Momiji, etc : !(Shocked)
Rumia : Is that so?

Part 3 END

I See, I Write, I Get [Part 2]

Momiji : My...God! Ah... Hah... Holy tengu! Hah... What just happened? Hah... Fortunately... that mountain miko...
Sanae : (Run to Momiji)Wait for mee!!
Momiji : AAAAA!!!! (Run)
Sanae : Hey! Wait!.... Weird dog... Now what am I doing here?....(Think)....Hmm... I forgot... Maybe I should ask Suwako sama~

After that, Momiji is running trough the foot of the mountain and...

Momiji : (Run) Is she following me? (Stop and look backward)
Rumia : (Walk and stop in front of Momiji) Hey~
Momiji : (Shock)WAA!!!
Rumia : Huh?
Momiji : Oh... It's you...
Rumia : So~ nano ka~ (Translation : Is That so~)
Momiji : You alone?
Rumia : Sou ka~
Momiji : Where's your friends?
Rumia : (Go)
Momiji : Hey! Where are you going? Should I wait her? Hmm... Maybe no...(Go to other direction)

Minute later.....

Rumia : (Dragging Cirno)
Cirno : Hey! What's the big idea?!
Daiyousei : (panic)
Rumia : Someone asking for you just a moment ago.
Cirno : Huh? Who's that?
Rumia : Umm... I dunno. She ask me like that.
Daiyousei : Why didn't you ask her name?
Rumia : I forgot. Anyway let's play!
Cirno : OK.
(Everyone go)

In another place...

Momiji : Now what should I do? (Thinking pose) I must get an article, but in order to get an article I must look for someone or something special or unique. But the problem is...
Nitori : (Suddenly mimicking Momiji's pose near her)There's nothing special or unique here... Hmm...
Momiji : Hmm... WHA?! (Look to Nitori) What are you doing?
Nitori : What? You don't want me to be here?
Momiji : Nah, that's not it. But, please don't shocked me... This day I'm just feeling unlucky... (T.T)
Nitori : Umm... So, tell your aunt Nitori about this unlucky feeling...
Girls are explaining........
Momiji : And that's how I could end up being here...
Koishi : (Came when girls are explaining, unconsciously) Hmm... Quite difficult problem, isn't it?
Nitori : ?!
Momiji : !! Who... Who are you?! And... And where...?
Koishi : Oh, sorry to interrupt. I'm Koishi Komeiji.
Nitori : Ooh, the younger sister of Satori from underground right?
Koishi : Yup.
Momiji : Ooh... So... Why you're here?
Koishi : Umm? I don't know. I just unconsciously wandering to here. Hehe...
Momiji : Aaaah.... Unconsciously?
Koishi : You bet.
Momiji : Hmm... Such a.... weird power...
Nitori : Umm, by the way Koishi. Why you dressed like Reimu?
Koishi : Huh? Oh, This uniform! I got it from Reimu's place.
Momiji : You...work...there?
Koishi : Kinda...
Momiji : Hmm....
Nitori : (To Momiji) This is NEWS Momiji! NEWS!!
Momiji : Wha? What?
Nitori : You can go to Hakurei shrine and interview her!
Koishi : Yes! And Your master will praise you with a bone!
Momiji : Wha? Whaat?! I'm a wolf! Not a dog!
Koishi : But how if I throw this bone? (Pick a bone in her sleeves and throw it)
Momiji : ! (Run to the bone)
Nitori : You're such a mean Koishi...
Koishi : Huh? Me? What I'm doing just that?
Nitori : (Facepalm and go to her place, different direction with Momiji)
Koishi : Hey? Why?! Am I doing something wrong?! Ah well, time to back to work~... (Look right and left) Where did everybody go? (Go)

Part 2 END

I See, I Write, I Get [Part 1]

One time, when the mountain of faith covered by nothingness and boring situation, Aya, the fastest tengu in Gensokyou, still searching something interesting to make an article.

Momiji : (Playing Game)
Aya : Momiji.
Momiji : Hmm...(Playing Game)
Aya : Momiji.
Momiji : What?(Still playing)
Aya : (go to momiji and shout) MOMIJI!
Momiji : (Shocked) [SFX : Pichuuuun] .....Aya! What of the wind God are you want? That's my last  live you know!
Aya : (Sigh) I've been looking everywhere to get an article to write in my newspaper and you just play this game?!
Momiji : But, there is nothing interesting now! Not a single incident.
Aya : And you want me to kick you out from this house? (Go get a small black bag)
Momiji : But! But! This last stage! I...
Aya : (Give the bag)Now just go and look for a news out there!(Go out)
Momiji : But!...(Aya's gone).....She doesn't even listen to me... What a draag....(Go)

Then she go. Where? She even don't know where she want to go. Just wandering without destination and hope a miracle is come to her. And suddenly...

Sanae : MIRAAACLEE!!! WIIIIIND!!!! (swing her gohei)
Momiji : Err... What are you doing?
Sanae : Did you just think miracle to come after you?
Momiji : Umm... Thet's right, but...
Sanae : Then (raise her gohei) MIRACLEEE!!! WIIIIND!!! COM...
Momiji : (Try to stop sanae) Hey, stop! Stop! Stop! I don't want any danmakku fight now!
Sanae : But you want some miracle right?
Momiji : I... argh.... forget it...
Sanae : (Stare)....
Momiji : Wha...what?
Sanae : (Stare)...
Momiji : (Stare)...
Sanae : (Stare)...
Momiji : (Stare)...Uuuugh...
Sanae : (Stare)...
Momiji : Argh! Don't look at me like that! Just do what you want to... I'll go!
Sanae : Yeeee! Thanks Momiji! I'll follow you!
Momiji : Eeee! Why?! What you... (sigh)...OK, do what you want...
Sanae : OK! But first...
Momiji : Huh?
Sanae : (Raise gohei)MIRACLEE WIND!!! BLOW!!!

[SFX:ZUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN~]

Momiji : Arhh! It's typhoon! Why she calls this wind?!(Run)
Sanae : Yee! Wind! Wind! Momi... Ee! Wait for me!(Follows Momiji)

Meanwhile in Moriya Shrine...

Kanako : (come inside the shrine and read newspaper)
Suwako : (Watching TV)
Kanako : (Sneeze)
Suwako : (Look at Kanako and then Watching TV again)

.......minute later

Kanako : (Sneeze)
Suwako : (Look at Kanako and watching TV again)

.........minute later again

Kanako : (Sneeze)
Suwako : (While watching TV)She's saying that again, isn't she?
Kanako : It must be. Ahh, why she must call me 3 times? And I shall give her a medium wind miracle. (Snaps her finger and continue reading)
Suwako : (Watching TV)

Part 1 : END

New iPod, New iDea

My, my...
Until now, I still remember that indescribableness  present from ****** which I won on that little "education champ". But that makes me feels a bit refreshing, coz' that's not a champ like answer some question, but play that question, in other word, game. But the gift is a tiny little clever iAm. Hehe, nah, it's an iPod Shuffle. A green one! And that tiny little thing is something interesting to me. Why?

One day, I look at Y**t*b* and found some iPod ad, starring by some touhou characters.
"OMG! The developer of this picture let us download it and edit it! Maybe I could do some tweaking in this picture." This is the reason I upload this picture to this blog. You can download it and watch it (Read the description) in this link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9YMxWpsW58&feature=related.
All thanks for ZUN (Team Shanghai Alice), Touhou, Zraty, etc, etc...

This is my creation. Have fun! :D (Although, it's not good enough for a picture :S)

Note : I'll update this picture as soon as I finish another picture.
           And thanks for looking into my picture.
    

Just the wind

*SWOOOOOOSH!!!!*
Aya : Shameimaru aya is HERE!
Sin Sack : \SHAMEIMARU/ \SHAMEIMARU/
Aya : OK. OK. Now for today's...
SS : \SHAMEIMARU/ \SHAMEIMARU/
Aya : Yes, yes. Today I got plenty of news in my Bunbunmaru Newspaper! And now I have to take another flight so, bye!
SS : SHAMEIMARUUU~!!!
Yukari : What are you doing here?
SS : YUKARI! YUKARI!
Yukari : Shut up or I...
SS : Yu...Yukari...
Yukari : *ZUUUUUNNN!!!
SS : *A*
.........
Ze?
What the hell is I thinking about?
I think about that game again...
Something about touhou and that fan-made story that make me laugh, maybe...
This time the wind blow on me, wildly...
And not only that wind, many task and homework is blow to me too...wildly...


I'm in my way to a small barbershop, which I oftentimes come.
Then I have my very little nap there...
Very little time worth many to me...
It'll wash away some of stressful mind...


Huft...
Today, many things changed...
From the "finger dance" fever, "Marisa Ze!" fever, and many more fever...
I was thinking how if people in my school got a "FEVER"?
Maybe we will point our finger to the sky and then the sky turn to dark...
Lastly, many thunders go down...
...Isn't that right?
Off course not...
...Is that so?
Maybe yes...


So...
It's finished...
I paid him and I go home, but I think many more lunatic thinking...
Like this:

• When I feel my hair fall down to my skin, I just feel that I grazed some danmaku. "So, is this what it feels?"
• When I went back to my home, the cloud started to cry. Some water that i feels in my skin was cold but it was still like snow. Little but cold. "OMG! I got to go home, fast! It's changed from easy mode to normal mode! Feels like I can graze it!" But, a while before i got to my home, the cloud was increasing its difficulty. "What the...? It's changed to Hard! I must clear the stage as soon as possible!" And it's done and i just get wet a little.
• etc.

Ahh...

Maybe I take too much wind from Gensokyo in my dream...

Maybe I waste too much time in Hakurei Shrine in my dream...

Maybe I think too much about this lunatic topic in this real world...

But, may "that youkai" open a gap for an outsider?

Maybe the wind from the dream can bring you unconscious...

Even in this in-imaginary world...

Still, it's my life...

It's my rule...

And it's my game...

=====================Please insert more coin=====================

Just the walk

Rain...

Not like the ordinary rain...

But it was happy to go down here...

To the earth...

Like...

Cry...

Hope I can go to the sky...
How it feel when you go to sky and feel the cloud...


Sometime I think for myself like a selfish person...
"What the hell am I do it for? It's not good for me but good for you. If it satisfy me, then i will do it, but if it's not, i'm out."
But this selfish-kinda-thing is make me think...
"But...
Who am I?
I am...
Just a person...
have nothing and...
What?"


Ordinary, nameless, and nothing to do with me...
Sometime I try to think if I can fly...
Sometime I try to dream if I can see the entire world...
Sometime I try to remember my first sweet dream...
Sometime...


This walk in the night...
I'm walked over train rail...
It was drizzle...
I opened my black umbrella and walk upon that rail...
Black rail...
What could I see on that day is black rail, and black stone...
A pond and some houses...
And many lights...
But not near...


Those light was far...far...away...
And I couldn't think if I could grab those lights and throw it into the sky...
It would fuse with stars above the sky...


Yeah...
My brain is lingering too much...
And...
Far...far..away...
I see a light...
Bright one, but small...
And...
It in front of me...
....
....
....
....


Oh goodness!
I forgot!
I was in that rail and THAT MUST BE A TRAIN!!
Holy...
And I must go into this direction to go to my brother!
Not my sibling, but I must go there!


I ran and ran into that train...
Think that I could live a little longer...
I ran faster....faster...
And that light was far...
But I still frighten of that light so I ran to my brother's house...
Some minute later, a train passes by...


I was thinking...
And dreaming...
How if that train was "teleported by a gap"?
Is Yukari involved?


Hah, my brain is circling my head and make myself think about that game again...
Yeah...
Touhou...
But...
Well...
My time is going up...
So That game wont still for me forever and I have to change my mind...

ENTIRELY...

And change my face...
ENTIRELY!!

Just the optical illusion

...........

Huh?

??? : Done with your nap?

Huh?

What the...?

??? : Hold on. don't push yourself so hard.

Who are you?

??? : I dunno. You supposed to know me.

Hmm...

Oh...

Yeah...

??? : Yeah...

Hey, don't copy me.

??? : Hehe.

You just gave me a heart attack.

??? : Huh... It supposed that your friends want to kill me. Am I right?

Umm...

Yeah...

Sorry about the detail, but...

??? : OK. OK. I know that.

Uhh...

Sorry...

??? : Huh. You know, maybe I must hide during that day. May I use your bag?

What?

N...no...

I mean, you supposed to...

Uuh...

Sorry...

(What a pity. She like one of touhou character, Udonge, but she don't wear an office cloth but just an ordinary cloth. But, maybe she can do some optical illusion? Perhaps? But... I'm feeling dizzy.)

??? : Hey, why the hell?

Uhh...

I don't know...

??? : Maybe my wavelength is too strong?

Wha...?

??? : Hey. Don't sleep here. Help me.

Uhh. I can't handle this anymore.

..........

Huh. Another strange dream. Now I met "Udonge" from Touhou series. But she just have two bunny ear like Udonge, and she have a long, but grey hair. I don't know what she's thinking about that night.


It was a good place. We sit above the grass. The scenery is like on the mountain. Autumn season. But it was not very good mood. She just... Umm... You know, she has to die. Maybe. Perhaps not. Her life is hard. Even harder than me. But she has a mind to survive this. But, me?


Perhaps I can do something...

Just the time

??? : Umm, sir?

Huh?

Me?

??? : Yes. Umm, thanks for saving me.

Huh?

Save...you?

From what?

??? : You know the cat you pick at your roof?

Huh?

You're...?

??? : Yeah.

Oh, yeah.

OK, don't mind it.

??? : But...

Yeah?

??? : Why you closed that door?

Umm...

About that...

I'm sorry...

I can't do that...

??? : Why?

Umm...

Yeah...

You know, I can't take care of myself very well...

How if you go to my home and I adopt you as my pet?

Maybe it'll be getting worse for you and me...

??? : Yeah.

Umm, sorry...

??? : OK.

He... hey!

Take care of yourself!

??? : You are the one who must be take care.

Huh?

Wha...what?

Heey!

Wait!

..........

She disappear...

1 AM. Another dream. Now is about the cat I "saved". She couldn't move from my house's roof. So I just get her down and let her go. Haah. What a strange dream I met "Chen" in my dream. Unfortunately, she only has one tail, not two. So, she mustn't be  "Chen".


Another word that I want to know, "You are the one who must be take care." Why? Am I doing something wrong or maybe...